Questions in the midst of Certainty

Sometimes we cannot see past our present circumstances but the amazing thing is that God does. I have been reading through Judges and when I got to chapter 6 I was struck by the many pictures of grace that God shows to a reluctant, scared guy.

When Gideon is first encountered, he is threshing wheat secretly for fear of the Midianites. The angel of the Lord approaches him and what does he call him? (Judges 6:12) "the LORD is with you, brave and mighty man!" Gideon responds by stating that if God really was with his people, they would not be in the situation they were in. And the response, he gives Gideon a job: to lead the people in battle against the Midianites.

As we all do when we are given a huge task, Gideon immediately tells him why that is not possible: not only is his clan weakest but he is the least important of his family. He better get someone who has better credentials. That is not a good excuse and the LORD answers, "You can do it because I will help you. You will crush the Midianites as easily as if they were only one man." (6:16). Excuses don't work with God since he obviously had made up his mind.

I think that at this point, God is addressing the one thing that is holding Gideon to his present, oppressive situation--his fear. Perhaps he feared failure, perhaps he feared what others would think, perhaps he thought that no one would go with him and he would be alone. All of those fears are answered when the LORD says that HE will be with him. This kind of reminds me of some other people in the bible and in real life.

So Gideon acknowledges that God has showed up and called him to obedience so he prepares his heart to do what God has said. He takes the first step. Then after the offering he gathers 10 guys to help him tear down his own father's idol to Baal and offers a sacrifice to The True God. But again, he is scared so he does it in the dark. Obviously the next day people notice and they go to his dad and ask what happened to the idol and they threaten to kill Gideon. But Gideon's step toward obedience spurs his father to obedience as well and his father tells the men to 'let Baal defend himself.' Then Gideon gathers his army.

As soon as he does that, he does the thing he is most famous for--he asks God for a sign. Twice. I guess I always though he was a wimp or unspiritual for doing such a thing. That was when I was ignorant and a child. As I have been reading this passage it gives me a great picture of the patience and grace of God. He responds to excuses and impatience with answers and love. Who are we to question the word of God. But yet, we are very finite and in our weakness we want to know that we embark on a 'scary' or huge task that someone has our back. And especially that we are doing the right thing.

And as I read this I am reminded that God doesn't hold our questions against us. He requires obedience and as we obey, sometimes we need reassurance along the way. God gives that.

Kill The Snake

As I was playing the piano this morning I was struck by the words of an old hymn, "When I Survey the Wondrous Cross" by Isaac Watts. This hymn is beautiful and one of my favorites.

"Forbid it, Lord, that I should boast,

save in the death of Christ my God;

All the vain things that charm me most,

I sacrifice them to His blood."

I was convicted of these words and how it is so simple to get caught up in 'vain things.' The things are different for everyone, but I think they are anything that distracts us from the grand calling we have as believers to follow and serve Christ. I think one of the greatest entryways into our minds, leading to temptation is that black box which is in every living room in America--and maybe every other room of most houses. We watch shows, movies and commercials all the while knowing that the lifestyle, images and language presented in them are against the very morality that Scripture calls us to.

Last week I was at a Fields of Faith event. It is an outreach for high school students. The speaker at this event told a story:

There was a little girl who had a pet snake [true story] for her birthday. She fed the snake every day and it would sleep next to her, curled up on a pillow beside her on the bed. After a while the snake stopped eating and would not even eat different foods that the girl would try to feed it. The snake also stopped sleeping curled up on the pillow next to her, instead it lay stretched out, parallel to her. One day they stopped to ask a veterinarian what they could do to make the snake eat. They told her about the strange behavior of the pet. When he heard that the snake was not eating and now lay stretched out next to her, he said,

"When you go home, you need to kill the snake."

He explained that the snake was preparing itself to have its most fulfilling meal yet--the very girl who had loved it and given it so much attention.

The speaker looked at the youth and said, 'Some of you need to go home and kill the snake.' Those little sins in our life, we have to get rid of them! Satan looks to what we spend most time and thought on--those are our priorities and he will use them to his advantage to trap us in sin.

Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walks about, seeking whom he may devour 1Peter 5:8

If we are not constantly on guard of our thoughts and affections, we could very easily become victim to the schemes of the devil. Satan is very real and not passive.

I have been thinking about how it is usually vain and stupid things that fill most of my thoughts. I forget about the greater work that God is doing in the world. Even though I cannot go out and save every person out of Satan's grasp or rescue every person from their dark lifestyles. There are some things I can do--and hiding in my own safe world is not an option! As a believer I NEED to pray, pray, pray! I need fill my mind with things that will challenge me and inspire me to serve God and others. I can pray for ways to serve in my church and community. And there are many more ways to combat the ways of Satan in the world...

"...Now it is high time to awake out of sleep; for now our salvation is nearer than when we first believed. The night is far spent, the day is at hand. Therefore let us cast off the works of darkness, and let us put on the armor of light. Let us walk properly, as in the day, not in revelry and drunkenness, not in lewdness and lust, not in strife and envy. But put on the Lord Jesus Christ, and make no provision for the flesh to fulfill its lusts." Romans 13:11-14

So many things I could say about this passage, but I won't because I really think Paul said it best. We have been--can I say--embarrassed, of our Christian beliefs, but if they were lived out I really believe that my life and this world would be a very different place.

Compassion International

This is Isidoro.
Having the opportunity to be Isidoro's sponsor through Compassion International is one of the greatest joys of my life.
I started sponsoring him in 2006. He was 9.

Here he is this year.
He has Bizzy's birthday and is 3 days older than Michelle.

Isidoro is probably the only person who ever answers my letters. I LOVE getting his letters. He tells me about his family, what he is learning in school, that he got a beautiful new sports uniform, he describes his neighborhood. AND, there is always a picture that he drew me. I hope I can go visit him and meet him in real life someday.

His last letter said, "Siempre estoy orando por usted para que Dios la bendiga y la progeja. Siempre me siento muy contento al saber que siempre cuento con su apollo. Se despide usted esperando tener noticias pronto con mucho amor."
Which is translated, "I pray for you so that God is blessing you and watching over you. I am happy to count on your support. Bye to you now with much love, hoping to hear from you soon. With much love."
I am so blessed to know Isidoro and I pray that God continues to use him to bless his family and city. Maybe when I get to heaven I will see the extent of how our friendship affected my life, his life and the lives of others.

My favorite kind of Saturday

Hard work never hurt nobody. True. It actually helps everybody.

Some of my favorite memories growing up involved a lot of long, hard work. When we woke up on Saturday mornings we knew that it was going to be a work day. And it was normal. The fun thing was that we would all be working together. Dad would give us jobs to do and he would come back and check on us every once in a while. But the best part was when he would be satisfied with our work and we would feel like a million bucks.

I had been wanting to plant our garden ever since I came back from Ohio. Last Saturday I woke up and the house was strangely quiet. I looked out the window and saw dad, mom, Josh and Tim in the garden. I was so excited and knew it was going to be a good day. I went out and we pulled out all of the dead, dried up plants and whatever weeds we could. Then dad started giving out jobs and I volunteered to mow. What a job. It took 2 times to get all the tall grass down, Bekah, Michelle and Tim picked up the grass while Josh used the Weedeater. Dad cooked steaks and hot dogs on the grill for lunch and then we got back to work and tilled the garden, planted our new seeds and then Jon and Paul came home and the guys put cement in the small garden pond. We watched and enjoyed a gorgeous day and family.

Boy, I'm sure glad mom and dad decided to have all us kids! Many hands make light work.(--Mom always said this to us.)

Spring of 12

We are ready to begin a new semester! After a wonderful weekend of prayer, planning and being reminded of the urgency and the command to make disciples, we are ready to move forward and to reach our friends and our campus. We pray for open eyes to see the people around us and opportunities that Christ places before us, we pray for boldness combined with grace in sharing the gospel as well as clarity in speaking. We appreciate your prayers as well!